15 thoughts from a sober guy living in a van.
1) It’s way more comfortable than the bathroom floor.
2) Although the sun is still bright when glaring through my bedroom window, it no longer hurts my head like it once did.
3) Sleeping in my car no longer equates to the chance of getting a DUI.
4) My evening walks home from the bar are much easier, depending on parking.
5) My alarm clock is no longer my cell phone; it’s the first person to honk their horn.
6) Morning’s are equally as confusing at times. I often found myself in unfamiliar environments sleeping, now I question myself which time zone I am traveling in.
7) I no longer worry about waking up on my couch; I replaced that with a kayak in my living room.
8) I now have an alarm system attached to my bedroom door which is kind of cool in theory; I hope I never hear it go off!
9) If attending college prepared me for one thing in my life it was #vanlife. My dorm room was about the same size as my current living space. The only difference is I routinely didn’t make it back to my door room. I no longer have to worry about that.
10) Sleeping in a twin bed at 29 is now a choice. I have visited countless homeless shelters since I started my journey, and they often provide a twin mattress. Those individuals don’t have a choice where they sleep at night, I do.
11) I frequently get asked, “is it cold at night?” In short, sometimes, but it’s not nearly as chilly as sleeping on your front porch in the middle of winter because you blacked out and lost your keys. Those chilly nights are a good reminder of just how far I have come in my sobriety.
12) The most frequent question I get is; “Where do you use the bathroom?”
Restaurants, coffee shops, truck stops, there are countless options. Thankfully today when I wake up in the middle of the night I am no longer running to the toilet to release everything that I had consumed just hours prior.
13) Is it hot? Yes! Trust me; I enjoy the cold more than I do the heat when I am trying to fall asleep at night. With that said, it’s way more comfortable than tossing and turning, curling up in the fetal position making promises to my higher power that I will never drink that much again.
14) Van life is an adventure. Living in the Voyager Van gives me the ability to travel and see the world. Drive towards the unknown. Search for my next bucket list item. In theory, drinking gave me the same opportunity. The only difference, traveling the world was placed on hold because I would routinely choose a six pack over a trip. Searching for my next adventure meant pulling out my cell phone and looking on Instagram. The unknown, well nobody eve knew what I was going to next when I was drinking, so I guess the unknown is relatively comparable.
15) Nine month’s ago I made a choice to no longer live in a home. When everyone was going right, I decided to go left. Secure job, nope. I decided to sell all of my belongings to start a company that focused on a mission that I believed in, that recovery is possible in all forms. I no longer desired to live my life in a bubble. I wanted to engage in new and thoughtful conversations. Board of living my life in black and white, I wanted to see the world in color. I felt compelled to grow! I am sure there were a million other ways I could have accomplished all of these goals, but living my life in a van while staying sober has been the second best choice I have ever made, right behind choosing to get sober nearly four years ago. My goal, try one thing in every state that you once didn’t believe was possible without a drink in my hand. I can safely say that I have tried to accomplish more than just one activity in every state, and I am still sober.
Regardless of the choices we make in our lives, no matter how absurd they may seem to others, live your life authentic to who you want to be. Living in my van meant that I could chase my dreams. It gave me the opportunity to chase happiness. No matter what you choose to chase in life don’t do it because someone else wants you to do it, do it because you want to do it.
As of May 2017, I have traveled to 38 separate states while living in my Voyager Van. In total, I have driven through a combined 107 states in nine months. The only states that I left to visit are; Hawaii, Alaska, Connecticut, Maine, Delaware, North Dakota, South Dakota, Wisconsin, Vermont, Massachusetts, New Hampshire, and Rhode Island. If you have any recommendations on places to see in these states or would like to help me get to any of these states before the end of May, I would much appreciate your support. My goal was to travel to 50 states in 50 weeks, sober!
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“Dream as if you’ll live forever. Live as if you’ll die tomorrow.”
Have a little faith, and live true to yourself.
Life of the Sober Voyager.